Drug Addict

I didn't think I’d ever try you

I was way too much of a good girl to even consider it.

But I got a taste,

one Thursday afternoon, in the spring

The air was warm, smelled of fresh grass.

I was hooked; I had to have you

even though I knew you were no good

but I kept taking more and more.

You gave me such a high nothing else ever could

and before I knew it I needed you.

Day.

And night.

I felt like I’d lose my mind if I didn’t have you.

They told me you were no good

but the way you made me feel convinced me that

I couldn’t live without you.

And then everything started to change.

I was jittery and paranoid,

I tried so hard to get that high again

But you were no longer good.

Only now you made me sicker and sicker.

Even now in my withdrawal I get the urge

to want a taste of you

again.

Just a taste.

But all you’ve done is deteriorate my body

my mind

and my spirit.